I like to think of myself as strong. But in all honesty, I know I am weak in so many areas. Every time that I mess up in one of these areas, it’s hard to not beat myself up on the inside. I shouldn’t have yelled at my child, I should have remembered to do this one thing, I should’ve stayed on top of the laundry so that we would have clothes to wear today, I should’ve bitten my tongue when that rude person provoked me…the shoulda, woulda, coulda list goes on and on. I have found myself thinking, “I just have to try harder! Next time I won’t let that happen.” Ha! Good luck with that, self. Have you told yourself the same things? If only I had taken a moment to think before responding, I would’ve handled that situation better. A Bart Simpson-esque “Doh!” and a face palm for good measure, help to put me back in my place.
In 2 Corinthians 12:9, God tells us, “My grace is sufficient for you.” You’ve heard that before haven’t you? Me too. But read it again. God’s grace is ENOUGH for ALL the times you come up short, are forgetful, lose your temper, act selfishly, say that curse word, lash out at your loved one, break a promise, whatever your shortcomings and failures. God has you covered. Not so that you can continue to perform badly, but because we inevitably will. Even when we try our hardest to “do better.”
I often have imagined how disappointed God must be in me when I continue to sin in areas I have repeatedly asked for forgiveness. He must just roll his eyes and think, “Come on, Amanda! Get it together!” Well, that’s what I’m telling myself. But what I realized in this Scripture is that he’s telling me, “My grace is sufficient for you. For my strength is made perfect (it works best) in your weakness.” What? Wait a minute. It’s starting to hit home now. Every time I am weak, God rejoices in the fact that I NEED him. I’ve given him an opportunity to come to my rescue, to show himself to me and exhibit his power in the thing I find my self powerless to control.
So the next time you find yourself frustrated by your own incompetence or make the same mistake for the seemingly millionth time, remember this. Rather than judging you harshly, or shaking his head in shame, God is smiling at you. He’s rushing to your side to pick you up, dust you off, and send you on your way again, secure in his love for you. He’s cheering us on, friend! And he will meet us where we are, and he won’t leave us there. Each time we invite him to give us that grace, we grow a little stronger. In my weakness, He makes me strong.
“And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” 2 Corinthians 12:9, NKJV