Jesus called a little child to him and put the child among them. Then he said, “I tell you the truth, unless you turn from your sins and become like little children, you will never get into the Kingdom of Heaven. So anyone who becomes as humble as this little child is the greatest in the Kingdom of Heaven”.
As soon as we crossed the wooden bridge and put our toes in the sand, my daughter’s face lit up. “So many waters,” she said. “That’s right. There is so much water in the ocean,” I replied. Her face in awe, she took slow step after slow step down to the shoreline, stopping every few minutes to examine the sand that was creeping between her toes. “Oh, what’s this?” she exclaimed. “That’s sand, babe.” “Oh, sand!” she said with a smile. There are hardly words to capture the childlike wonder she exuded from every pore that first day on the beach. She could not take her eyes off the water. She was mesmerized and in complete awe of something so much bigger than her.
I sometimes think we are given the greatest example of what it means to follow Christ in our own children. They look at the big world around them and are not fearful. Instead, they are joy-filled and stand in awe. I think they recognize how small they are in comparison, yet they don’t underestimate their ability to enjoy and participate in it.
Jesus told the crowd in Matthew 18 that anyone who becomes as humble as a little child will be the greatest in the Kingdom of Heaven. Humility is recognizing how small we are in comparison to a great and mighty God, yet not underestimating our importance in His Plan.
I don’t know about you, but I struggle with unworthiness. I am a sinner. I screw up royally, and Satan uses my failures and my weaknesses to twist the knife of insecurity in my back. There seem to always be these lurking questions about my worthiness; questions like, “You don’t deserve that kind of love. What have you done to to deserve that?” and, “You haven’t spent nearly enough time one-on-one with God for Him to love you and use you. What makes you think you can lead others?” Maybe the lies the enemy tells you look the same, or maybe they’re phrased differently, but it is frighteningly easy to listen to them.
In some respects, Satan is right. I don’t deserve the kind of love God gives me, and I don’t do enough, give enough or spend enough time some weeks with Him to deserve to be loved and used for His Kingdom. The beauty of it is that we don’t have to deserve it, and this is what Satan conveniently leaves out. We don’t have to be perfect or even close to it for God to use us. He has given us grace!
His grace is what makes us worthy, and that is truly humbling. That’s the truth that knocks me to my knees, not out of shame, but out of thanksgiving and praise. And that humility is what God wants from us. He wants us to recognize that we need Him; that nothing we do is through our power. It’s all His. Nothing is for our glory. It’s for His.
I don’t know about you, but I want to be the kind of humble Jesus is describing in Matthew. I want so badly to never take for granted how powerful He is and how loving, and to recognize that no matter how much or little I mess up on any given day, He can still use me to further His Plan and grow me in the process.
The next time you find yourself struggling with the deception of the enemy, wrestling with the suggestion that you don’t deserve love or goodness or joy, remember that a humble spirit is all God requires of you for greatness, and remember that nothing you could ever do would make you worthy of His good and precious gifts. He has made you worthy.
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